First things first, I really like this title-"Half Short Double" and I have my own reasons of liking it. One, its originally mine! Two, I used it in a post which I wrote when I was really low and I felt better after writing it. Three, I couldnt have been better in choosing this title.(why?? Its TOP SECRET).
"Today" I am using this title again cause once more history repeated itself and I stand at a crossing similar to one I stood at then. The circumstances aren't really the same but they do remind me of past events. As tradition.. I choose the title of my blogs as the state of my mind at that point. The blog may or may not reveal the whats and whys about the title. :) But this blog was worthy of a slight hint fot its title.
Anyways, I have a lot in my tiny little head as usual. I have given CAT, the grand daddy of all MBA entrances. It went pretty decent. Apart from a few things I wish I shouldnt have done in those 2 hours, I think everything went decently well. And by far I haven't been thinking of the kind of score I might get. 22nd Jan is the big day! And I voulentarily will behave unperturbed till it arrives. For now, I have other exams to look forward to.
JMET is tomorrow. MBA in IITs! I am not really sure about it cause IIT prefers work ex people. But I am still giving it a try. Next in line are SNAP(Simbiosys), XAT(Xaviers') and NMAT(Narseemonji, Mumbai).
Apart from exams and MBA my head also carries a little something about AIESEC. My co-Aiesecers are having their LC Day right now. I am still a little unsure as to if I should go there tomorrow after my exam. Most probably I won't and I know later I'll hear a lot of "U missed it" and "U should have come".. but its ok.. I have my own stupid set of reasons to refrain from it.
A new development in me is that I have somehow learnt to be a little rude! Its surprising and I am not happy happy about it but I've managed to find a few instances when I was kinda rude! I have always believed that a little of everything is really important to be complete. Like a little-one would never understand why its wrong to not try and play with the candle-fire unless he burns his finger. The point is, its important to try out everything and then you would find yourself on a better platform to analyze and decide as what you are and what you want to be!
There are times in life when you are afraid of facing situations or rather you wish that that situation would never arise, but it does. Then is the time you take a decision to face it or turn your back on it. I have never turned my back on any situation as of yet and I don't intend to either. But there certainly are situations which I too wish would never arise. Its ironical that the things bound to happen are sometimes so scary! Like the 22nd of Jan! Like 2012! [:P] And the "something" to which this para is dedicated to. I don't know what I would do when I reach that point on the timeline which is moving fast and not showing any signs of mercy.
Name: Dhruv Mathur
Age: 20
Status: Single
State of mind: Uncertain
FIN.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Belief
“For those who believe, no proof is necessary. For those who don't believe, no proof is possible.”
I decided to write this blog right after reading this quote somewhere on the net. As soon as I read it, I could connect to it. Belief is a impalpable expression of behavior which has been dependent on the understanding and interpretation of the bearer ever since. For a few people, belief is something which gives them mental satisfaction. Like, people believe in spiritual things. A rich, unethical, sinful man donates lumps of money to his worship place or to the priests or to poor just because he believes that doing this would help him escape the consequences of all bad he has done! People believe there exists a supreme being who keeps an account of whatever they do or intend to do in their lives. So they worship this belief, whom they call GOD. Yes, looking at it the way I do, God is just a belief justified by interpretations of phenomenons bent towards the belief.
Belief can be more substantial in terms when it is in oneself. Like if a successful businessman believes that he is going to double the profits of his prospering business, he might do it! Its another form of belief, but I'd say its a better version of the intangible expression because this guy would work hard to achieve what he believes in because his belief is in his work and not some magical, paranormal phenomenon!
Belief can be on someone! Very cliché in movies "I believe in you!" said by the girl to express true love! My dad believes that I will make it big in life! Its what he believes, he has faith in my abilities! I believe that respect holds higher than monetary possessions and that trust and good communication is the foundation of any relationship! Its my opinion. An opinion I believe in.
The question of belief crops up usually for things we cannot measure tangibly. Abilities of people, love, metaphysical stuff, opinions etc.
If we cannot measure any of these things, which we may or may not believe in, how can anyone say that I need time to believe in something or someone? Isn't it ridiculous? Isn't that person just trying to escape by just giving reasons which have no real significance? If I had to believe in ghosts, I would not wait till I find one on the street. If I do not believe in ghosts, I just don't and finding one on the street would rather leave me amazed more than scared! If I don't believe in love means I never have tried it and I don't want to. Unless we give it a thought or a try rather, we can never establish or test our belief. If I say I do not believe in ghosts and piss in my pants if I have to pass a burial ground at 12 in the night, it is just stupid to keep myself in dark about my own beliefs!
We have set prototypes of things in the world around us. And it gives us a sense of control over ourselves or lets put it as a sense of individuality to declare that we are different. But are we? Very few of us actually mean what we say and the rest just think they do. We hear of homosexuals and we commonly say we support them because we understand their feelings and stuff. Imagine your son after a couple of years telling you that he is a gay and doesn't wanna marry. He refuses to bring home a 'bahu', refuses to give you grandchildren. Don't you think it is difficult or different to experience it than just saying it. I again want to mention that there are people who actually are strong enough to stand by what they think is right, but their number is fewer than we imagine.
For all those who still think they do not believe or they do believe in stuff, think again, give it a chance, give yourself a chance! To depict how important your belief can be to someone, I'd end by quoting:
A thief even if he wants, would never become a good man unless someone tells him, "I believe in you that you would not steal again."
Belief like many other expressions is one which withholds a lot of power in it. Power which can drive you and the people around!
I decided to write this blog right after reading this quote somewhere on the net. As soon as I read it, I could connect to it. Belief is a impalpable expression of behavior which has been dependent on the understanding and interpretation of the bearer ever since. For a few people, belief is something which gives them mental satisfaction. Like, people believe in spiritual things. A rich, unethical, sinful man donates lumps of money to his worship place or to the priests or to poor just because he believes that doing this would help him escape the consequences of all bad he has done! People believe there exists a supreme being who keeps an account of whatever they do or intend to do in their lives. So they worship this belief, whom they call GOD. Yes, looking at it the way I do, God is just a belief justified by interpretations of phenomenons bent towards the belief.
Belief can be more substantial in terms when it is in oneself. Like if a successful businessman believes that he is going to double the profits of his prospering business, he might do it! Its another form of belief, but I'd say its a better version of the intangible expression because this guy would work hard to achieve what he believes in because his belief is in his work and not some magical, paranormal phenomenon!
Belief can be on someone! Very cliché in movies "I believe in you!" said by the girl to express true love! My dad believes that I will make it big in life! Its what he believes, he has faith in my abilities! I believe that respect holds higher than monetary possessions and that trust and good communication is the foundation of any relationship! Its my opinion. An opinion I believe in.
The question of belief crops up usually for things we cannot measure tangibly. Abilities of people, love, metaphysical stuff, opinions etc.
If we cannot measure any of these things, which we may or may not believe in, how can anyone say that I need time to believe in something or someone? Isn't it ridiculous? Isn't that person just trying to escape by just giving reasons which have no real significance? If I had to believe in ghosts, I would not wait till I find one on the street. If I do not believe in ghosts, I just don't and finding one on the street would rather leave me amazed more than scared! If I don't believe in love means I never have tried it and I don't want to. Unless we give it a thought or a try rather, we can never establish or test our belief. If I say I do not believe in ghosts and piss in my pants if I have to pass a burial ground at 12 in the night, it is just stupid to keep myself in dark about my own beliefs!
We have set prototypes of things in the world around us. And it gives us a sense of control over ourselves or lets put it as a sense of individuality to declare that we are different. But are we? Very few of us actually mean what we say and the rest just think they do. We hear of homosexuals and we commonly say we support them because we understand their feelings and stuff. Imagine your son after a couple of years telling you that he is a gay and doesn't wanna marry. He refuses to bring home a 'bahu', refuses to give you grandchildren. Don't you think it is difficult or different to experience it than just saying it. I again want to mention that there are people who actually are strong enough to stand by what they think is right, but their number is fewer than we imagine.
For all those who still think they do not believe or they do believe in stuff, think again, give it a chance, give yourself a chance! To depict how important your belief can be to someone, I'd end by quoting:
A thief even if he wants, would never become a good man unless someone tells him, "I believe in you that you would not steal again."
Belief like many other expressions is one which withholds a lot of power in it. Power which can drive you and the people around!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
MANGO DOLLY
Well, I haven't written since long now! I missed you blog! :D
Anyways, a lot has happened since my last post. I went to a crazy conference where i found that people i thought were just friends turned out to be more than that :) a few unknowns added to my friend-o-meter! :) I tried a lot of new stuff too! I drank! :) Like really!! But it was worth the celebration!
NOTE: I have moved to the next paragraph after the drunken line cause I dont really remember what I did after i got drunk :P. Anyways, I do remember that after returning from the conference I had to get back to studying! It sounded scary! But i somehow did.. hmm... yeah.. I did! :)
My 2 lab internals are over now and they both were KHILLER!! I have my written intenals still to go... I'll manage somehow :P
Anyways, I even found time to watch a couple of movies!! And they WERE nice! :) BALLUUU and ALL THE BEST were the two. The movies were decent but I really have to say.. Sanju baba... jogging karoo!! :P and Fardeen baba... Kuch to karoo!! lolz...
I've grown to be this really chilled out guy somehow! No tension, no chick chick types! I have my IRMA exam on the 8th of Nov which is a MBA entrance test for a Rural Management institute. I have no idea what to prepare and from where to! But for the chilled out guy that i have become, I have no tension! :P
Apart from all this, there is some still newer stuff going on in life! Nice stuff! :) I THE LIKES TYPES!!
And i am so happy that because of me a very good friend of mine has started to blog actively!! :) It feels so nice to see that even I can be a source of inspiration! HEHEHE!
At last i'd like to end this random bolg by quoting....
Anyways, a lot has happened since my last post. I went to a crazy conference where i found that people i thought were just friends turned out to be more than that :) a few unknowns added to my friend-o-meter! :) I tried a lot of new stuff too! I drank! :) Like really!! But it was worth the celebration!
NOTE: I have moved to the next paragraph after the drunken line cause I dont really remember what I did after i got drunk :P. Anyways, I do remember that after returning from the conference I had to get back to studying! It sounded scary! But i somehow did.. hmm... yeah.. I did! :)
My 2 lab internals are over now and they both were KHILLER!! I have my written intenals still to go... I'll manage somehow :P
Anyways, I even found time to watch a couple of movies!! And they WERE nice! :) BALLUUU and ALL THE BEST were the two. The movies were decent but I really have to say.. Sanju baba... jogging karoo!! :P and Fardeen baba... Kuch to karoo!! lolz...
I've grown to be this really chilled out guy somehow! No tension, no chick chick types! I have my IRMA exam on the 8th of Nov which is a MBA entrance test for a Rural Management institute. I have no idea what to prepare and from where to! But for the chilled out guy that i have become, I have no tension! :P
Apart from all this, there is some still newer stuff going on in life! Nice stuff! :) I THE LIKES TYPES!!
And i am so happy that because of me a very good friend of mine has started to blog actively!! :) It feels so nice to see that even I can be a source of inspiration! HEHEHE!
At last i'd like to end this random bolg by quoting....
"bak bak hai aapki sun li, kis khet ki aap hai muli tedhe sawaalon ke hai tedhe jawaab miyaan na bibi raaji phir bhi lage hain kaaji itne asamanjas mein hai kyun janaab??" :D
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Half short double
She lived in a small cottage on a hill.
He was a neighbourhood lad.
She came to the window every evening to water flowers.
He used to wait for her.
One fine evening they exchanged smiles.
It felt good... became a routine.
he liked her... she knew it...
He loved her promising eyes...
Once he called out... But she ignored him... He couldn't understand why...
His voice fell on deaf ears..
Tears trickled down... he waited... called out again...
He wanted to move on... But waited... he believed...
He knew she liked him too...
But the lady who made the flowers blossom, now seemed stone-hearted.
He never knew and would never know why it had to end...
But one thing is obvious...
On the bridge between friendship and love... one needs to take a step... if not forward, the choice made becomes obvious...
Expression marks the foundation of any relationship...
He was a neighbourhood lad.
She came to the window every evening to water flowers.
He used to wait for her.
One fine evening they exchanged smiles.
It felt good... became a routine.
he liked her... she knew it...
He loved her promising eyes...
Once he called out... But she ignored him... He couldn't understand why...
His voice fell on deaf ears..
Tears trickled down... he waited... called out again...
He wanted to move on... But waited... he believed...
He knew she liked him too...
But the lady who made the flowers blossom, now seemed stone-hearted.
He never knew and would never know why it had to end...
But one thing is obvious...
On the bridge between friendship and love... one needs to take a step... if not forward, the choice made becomes obvious...
Expression marks the foundation of any relationship...
Monday, September 21, 2009
Vrindavan
A lot of excitement, a lot of loud music, a lot of bare footed dancers, a lot of smiles and a lot of sweat is how I'd describe my outing last night. Excitement is something which sprouts at even the thought of "Rass". But the magnitude it rose to when I stepped on the sand covered dance floor was unbelievable! The traditional clothing and the Indian beats with earthy vibes around, it was a feeling undefinable in words.
Three hours of non-stop dancing with your peers, best friends, crush, starangers... Couldn't have been better. While dancing if you stop by and take a stroll around the resonating arena, inspite of the fact that the music is too overpowering and the people too indulged in their dance that they might just step over you and proceed to their next dance move, you still feel this outburst of peace and happiness even when you are the 'china shop' amongst the 'bulls'. May be it is the whole gist of Navratri or is it the feel of the everything around at that time which makes you feel that way.
Surprisingly a lot of people who go to try their skills at striking sticks forget the very purpose of the tradition! It is a DEVI maata's puuja! Now how many of us actually went and took blessings from the godess who was sitting there for whom we were supposed to be dancing! Some of us even forgot to look at her! It does happen with a lot of people. We focus on the immediate task and not the final cause. But anyways, the Godess doesn't really mind... after all, we all are kids to her! :)
Well I'll end this blog on that note... Wish all of you a great Festive time ahead! :)
Three hours of non-stop dancing with your peers, best friends, crush, starangers... Couldn't have been better. While dancing if you stop by and take a stroll around the resonating arena, inspite of the fact that the music is too overpowering and the people too indulged in their dance that they might just step over you and proceed to their next dance move, you still feel this outburst of peace and happiness even when you are the 'china shop' amongst the 'bulls'. May be it is the whole gist of Navratri or is it the feel of the everything around at that time which makes you feel that way.
Surprisingly a lot of people who go to try their skills at striking sticks forget the very purpose of the tradition! It is a DEVI maata's puuja! Now how many of us actually went and took blessings from the godess who was sitting there for whom we were supposed to be dancing! Some of us even forgot to look at her! It does happen with a lot of people. We focus on the immediate task and not the final cause. But anyways, the Godess doesn't really mind... after all, we all are kids to her! :)
Well I'll end this blog on that note... Wish all of you a great Festive time ahead! :)
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Something I randomly liked... lolz..
Life ends when you stop dreaming.... ,
Hope ends when u stop believing ....,
Love ends when u stop caring
and .........
Relationship ends when u stop sharing....
Hope ends when u stop believing ....,
Love ends when u stop caring
and .........
Relationship ends when u stop sharing....
Friday, September 4, 2009
Unexpected Circumstances
Day after tomorrow I have my 1st MBA entrance exam and I am here writing this blog. There are a lot of moments in life where you feel like doing something which you know is not the RIGHT thing to do... but you still do it.
There has been a lot of stuff going on in life lately! Which I could not or chose not to tell anyone. Its so hard to just keep stuff inside. Not that its some secret but you need someone you can always call and count on, well, I do! The most important thing to me... my exam... seems so unimportant in light of a few unexpected stuff that happened.
This blog has somehow started to behave like the companion i always used to search in a few people and honestly never found, was either disheartened or left with my feelings unheeded! Today i find it much more convenient sharing stuff here...
I don't know what I'll do day after. The 150 minutes which I was so keen on spending well now seem more like the spur of the moment thing.
What surprises me is not the fact that the priorities of the mind can be so agile, the surprising part is you never know who would actually come forward to lend you a shoulder at the time when you need it the most. The ones expected seem to have lost all memory of your existence and the ones you never expect to have done something for you, work out-of-their-ways to make you feel better.
Is it that we can be so wrong in judging people? Or is it that people are not supposed to be judged and kept expectations with?
Sometimes I really wish I could be as insensitive as others. I wish I could ignore people, their feelings and just carry on with my sweet stuff. But then if I would, then it wouldn't be me anymore. I might be a little less worried, a little less cerebrating, but then I won't be myself to appreciate what I had become.
I am none to judge people. I am none to define any code of behavior, but if I had to accept the levels of insensitivity I see around me to trade all the worries I have in the world, I'd rather choose the pandemonium.
What I write today might not make sense to a lot of people. But wtf? None of you know whats going on in my head right now!
The good thing about blogging is, without letting your emotions spill, it can make you feel better. I, feel better already!
There has been a lot of stuff going on in life lately! Which I could not or chose not to tell anyone. Its so hard to just keep stuff inside. Not that its some secret but you need someone you can always call and count on, well, I do! The most important thing to me... my exam... seems so unimportant in light of a few unexpected stuff that happened.
This blog has somehow started to behave like the companion i always used to search in a few people and honestly never found, was either disheartened or left with my feelings unheeded! Today i find it much more convenient sharing stuff here...
I don't know what I'll do day after. The 150 minutes which I was so keen on spending well now seem more like the spur of the moment thing.
What surprises me is not the fact that the priorities of the mind can be so agile, the surprising part is you never know who would actually come forward to lend you a shoulder at the time when you need it the most. The ones expected seem to have lost all memory of your existence and the ones you never expect to have done something for you, work out-of-their-ways to make you feel better.
Is it that we can be so wrong in judging people? Or is it that people are not supposed to be judged and kept expectations with?
Sometimes I really wish I could be as insensitive as others. I wish I could ignore people, their feelings and just carry on with my sweet stuff. But then if I would, then it wouldn't be me anymore. I might be a little less worried, a little less cerebrating, but then I won't be myself to appreciate what I had become.
I am none to judge people. I am none to define any code of behavior, but if I had to accept the levels of insensitivity I see around me to trade all the worries I have in the world, I'd rather choose the pandemonium.
What I write today might not make sense to a lot of people. But wtf? None of you know whats going on in my head right now!
The good thing about blogging is, without letting your emotions spill, it can make you feel better. I, feel better already!
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